Pika pika~.

Wednesday, February 18, 2015

hi yo there readers !!! morning guys !!! just wanna be here to just vent things again !! hahaha hope u guys dont mind? rmb to play the song from below .. which is my last post before reading this

wake up early in the morning to go for my out camp run.. sending her morning text as usual .. but no reply .. guess i really hurt her too much .. btw i wanna let u know something.. if just by luck.. by luck u came by to read at my blog. which i dont think you will ? hahaha

rmb that day back at macdonald ? we will chatting happily away ... that moment is so perfect ! till i got recalled .. rmb ?? and i was trying to tell you something rmb ?? and it was..... do you know why i until now nvr make a move to chase you ? rmb that question ? actually at that point of time i wanted to tell you about my things.. about that plan... but you keep.. nvm.. not interested ... dont want to know .. even though that is the first time i ever wanna let you know something badly.. but yet you didt wanna know not given a chance to let you know... haisss

its really make me sad on that day when u saw it .. and thought i was a total liar.. to tell you the truth .. everything i talk to you about .. tell you about.. its nth but all the truth expect for that..

now im regretting that i didt tell you on that day .. i should have force my conversation in .. should have interrupted you .. should have let u know the truth ... i tried a lot of time to tell you the truth about that.. but was not given that chance .. and when you found out... its too late. all i knew its too late.... shall end here then.. shall go on and emo and listen to my emo song

till now im still hopping for a chance to explain just a chance to meet you up and explain ..just 1 ...

分手那天
Fen shou na tian
我看着你走远
Wo kan zhe ni zou yuan
所有承诺化成了句点
Suo you cheng nuo huan cheng le ju dian
独自守在空荡的房间
Du zi shou zai kong dang de fang jian
爱与痛在我心里纠缠
Ai yu tong zai wo xin li jiu chan

**
我们的爱走到了今天
Wo men de ai zou dao le jin tian
是不是我太自私了一点
Shi bu shi wo tai zi si le yi dian
如果爱可以重来
Ru guo ai ke yi chong lai
我会为你放弃一切
Wo hui wei ni fang qi yi qie

[Chorus]
想你的夜
Xiang ni de ye
多希望你能在我身边
Duo xi wang ni neng zai wo shen bian
不知道你心里还能否为我改变
Bu zhi dao ni xin li hai neng fou wei wo gai bian
想你的夜
Xiang ni de ye
求你让我再爱你一遍
Qiu ni rang wo zai ai ni yi bian
让爱再回到原点
Rang ai zai hui dao yuan dian

分手那天
Fen shou na tian
我看着你走远
Wo kan zhe ni zou yuan
所有承诺化成了句点
Suo you cheng nuo huan cheng le ju dian
独自守在空荡的房间
Du zi shou zai kong dang de fang jian
爱与痛在我心里纠缠
Ai yu tong zai wo xin li jiu chan

**
我们的爱走到了今天
Wo men de ai zou dao le jin tian
是不是我太自私了一点
Shi bu shi wo tai zi si le yi dian
如果爱可以重来
Ru guo ai ke yi chong lai
我会为你放弃一切
Wo hui wei ni fang qi yi qie

[Chorus]x2
想你的夜
Xiang ni de ye
多希望你能在我身边
Duo xi wang ni neng zai wo shen bian
不知道你心里还能否为我改变
Bu zhi dao ni xin li hai neng fou wei wo gai bian
想你的夜
Xiang ni de ye
求你让我再爱你一遍
Qiu ni rang wo zai ai ni yi bian
让爱再回到原点
Rang ai zai hui dao yuan dian

Pika Pikachu <3{11:04 AM]

i got a lot to say to this certain person ..but i think i might not have a chance.. i do hope that this person will give me that chance.. i know im in the wrong.. im really sorry

Pika Pikachu <3{12:31 AM]

Monday, October 28, 2013

Welcome back to my little DEAD blog !

Basically i guess this is the only place where i could only write down what i truly feels . guess what ! at the end i still cant let her go at all .

now i understand what is regret ... i regret letting her go .. i really want her by my side.. every moment every sec , all my thoughts was about her. Even now ! i know at work and things i will try to avoid eye contact with her or even saying hi ... but u know something? i really really wanna talk to u again i want to hug u again i really want your attention , the urge is so fucking hard to fight back !

Even now this happens, Normally i cant sleep at night, ytd which im so tired that i finally fall asleep . like FINALLY ! and u came to my dream. it was so real SO REAL ! that u are embracing me in your arm with me looking up towards you.. it was so warm its was SO REAL !!! till i dont wanna wake up any more ! i wish i could just die at that moment .

Now i really wish that i could turn back time to that moment when we are about to break up and change my answer.. i should have been a jerk and not respect your decision .. i should not have

Lastly as for this few weeks , kinda lots of my friend been asking me , never thought of being friend with her? Come on man... i dont wanna be friend with her . i want her to be mine !<<< a ans i nvr told any 1 at all

Pika Pikachu <3{1:53 PM]

Saturday, July 13, 2013

OK !!! PEEPS !!!

I think its time to clear things up , i guess it should be long enough to let people around me thinks that this blog is dead or something.

lets just be true to every 1 out there , yeah just like what brenda said... i really do still love her.

i just cant let her go at all. have been keeping it to myself all this time.

i know that you are suffering , at least i could see that you are enjoying your single's life , not being drag down by me like that 2 years. actually i dont really wanna clear things out here .. afraid that you might see it. but then due to ytd bz msg me.. linking towards you.. even just abit.. then my whole thoughts is full of you , didt even had a wink of sleep.

Looking at your face book photo's trying to guess how its been for you , look at your tumblr making me just wanna grab you and hug you . COULD I ?

there was even times i went to your house , not really outside your house. just under your block walking around just missing you from time to time. "Listening to : all american rejects "wind blows" "

there are even times i really wanna ask you out for movie .. to start things out all over again..

fb post : you wont even know by you

it just kept me thinking are you talking about me ?? i guess not?? but i really do hope its me though

fb post july 3rd : 重來一次我的選擇仍會是你.

is it about me too ??? i really do hope its me though but it wont be..

at this point of time i should be in thin air already.. not like me still missing you away...

i even check you out like almost everyday .. hoping u will live happily.. when the haste happens , you fell sick.. i was so worried that i have no choice to just send a msg .. even though i wanna be beside you taking care of you .

ok better stop.. my bro is back i dont want my bro to see me wrting this....

BYE .. by BENG !

Pika Pikachu <3{8:29 AM]

Tuesday, April 23, 2013

HI THERE PEEPS !!!! It's me again ! the boring BENG !!!

Today i kinda wanna talk about work "Stuff"

Here goes nothing .. , i have been in this work "polliwogs" for 2 years... to tell the truth .. i dont really have the heart to work there any more.. there's nothing there to keep me working there ..

i wanted to quit like a year ago? is thanks to my "girlfriend" ex.. that kept me in the work.. just trying to cover her up so she can go on off... when she needs it.. but now.... broke up already.. so its kinda like no reason for me to work there??? and the supervisor there SUCKS !!! that makes it a PLUS point to QUIT !!!

now... just because i have no more school .. they kept asking me to work more.. to help out .. and stuff... its not that i don't want to... all the ns letter and stuff just keep coming in... what can i do ?? when im trying to explain to you "manager" always will say this... beng don't give me excuses if you don't want to work confirm will find 100 and 1 excuse to make things up..

come on ! im trying to at least tell you whats going on ! and always you just don't wanna listen... but any way its TRUE !! i don't wish to work any way..

that's why my heart is totally dead in that work...

and now due to the fact of helping my friend.. i will just work a little more.. by forcing myself of cause..

anyway.. I'm gonna quit soon... or gonna try make them fire me ... to save my own laziness to type a letter ....

ok !!! gonna Sign out !!!!
(dead) beng

Pika Pikachu <3{8:45 AM]

Friday, April 19, 2013

WOOO !!! Early in the moring !!! 4.30am .. I can't get to sleep as usual..

I know I know.. it will be bad if this goes on....

As for now .. things are going as plan.. just 1 last missing 1... A girl call mine..

it might be because im a despo guy ?? but come on .. i got used to having some 1 calling as mine for 2 years... being disturb by her ,troubled by her, worried about her , getting some care and love from her..

and suddenly .. here I am .. siting over here in front of my com blogging away ... phone is in PEACE mode ,doesn't ring any more (phone in 100% good condition)

instead of how i enjoy that 2 years.. now it becomes .. Boring life... not even a sound from my phone!! well there is sound coming out of my tummy though... ( im hungry )

I could go have some food ??? Of cause I can !!! maybe once ? twice? thrice?

DO YOU EVEN KNOW HOW LONELY IT IS !!!! TO !!!! Eat/Sleep/Play/Read... basically ANYTHING !!!! ALONE !!!

not that I don't have any friend .. i have LOTS of them... school have pulled them away from me if not ns (national service)

GUYS wait wait a sec !!! don't think by writing all this im gonna just any oh how hit a girl up...

even though i do believe that feelings can be pei yang (build up) and become love eventually

will write till here then.. im afraid im gonna bored you READERS with my life story...

signing off !
Beng

Pika Pikachu <3{4:42 AM]

Thursday, April 18, 2013

Hi there READERS !!!! today's post will be somewhat different, its will be a kinda sudden post cause of my wishful thinking..

This is what happen...

Got to know a new girl.. thought it might be heaven giving me a new chance or something for me to go for it .. since i lost my last.. even though im not the 1 who let go ..

Have been messaging for a while.. just praying all the while that "please dont friend zone me " kind of feeling...

but something even worst happen... made this girl my TARGET .. but she didt know " my wishful thinking "

was messaging her.. and sudden pop out.. she had a boyfriend.....

suddenly a devil beng and a angel beng pop out of no where "imagination"

Devil Beng: See i told you !!! sure friend zone .

Angel Beng: Isn't it good? just being friends??

Devil Beng : Are you dumb Angel? he needs some 1 to take up all his free time he need some 1 to call his own!

Angel Beng: Devil you are wrong.. friends can take your time too cant be called your own though..

Beng: Cant you 2 just give me a break.. im kinda got reject over here.. and you 2 are fighting in front of me !

Angel Beng: Sorry that we quarrel but Beng its ok you are still young ! you are 21 years old only..

Devil Beng: Beng is young ????!!! PUI !! "spit siliva towards the ground " his 21 years old now.. go sign on 5 years then he be 26 years old.... after poly 29 after uni 32 working for a few years just to become stable.. by then will be 35 !!!! 35 !!! is that still freaking YOUNG !!!! he will be a old guy by then !!!

Angel Beng : Devil you already said his gonna be going to poly.. so there will be a lot for him to choose ..

Devil Beng : Come on Angel .... look at his freaking course !!!! his course have no girls at all !!! maybe just 1 or 2 !!

Angel Beng: hmm ok you are right on that point , how about uni ? im sure there is girl.

Devil Beng: like i say.. COURSE !!!!!

Angel Beng: im sure there will be a few..

Devil Beng: yup there will be a few.. and all taken ... YOU THINK THE WHOLE WORLD STAY SINGLE FOR THE SAKE OF HIM !!!

Beng: Come on ~ im already totally shag on my side being rejected.. not to mention.. i thought she is SINGLE !

Angel Beng: Devil stop it !!! Beng cant take it any more.. his already being rejected and stuff give him some space.. his still young..

Devil Beng : SHUT UP !!! "push Angel aside" Beng listen to me !!! you got to find some 1 and claims her yours !!! and TREAT HER GOOD !!! now you are 21 ... you can date her till 35 .. 14 years of dating after that you can get married .. isnt it good?

Angle Beng:"ran forward and use his butt and bum Devil away" you dont have to rush beng take your time.. even if you are 35 you will eventually find the right 1..

Devil Beng : By then its too LATE

Angel Beng : NO its not

Devil Beng : YES it is !

Angel Beng: NO

Devil Beng : YES

Angel Beng: NO

Devil Beng : YES

Angel Beng: NO

Devil Beng :YES

Beng : SHUT THE FUCK UP !!!!!!!!!!!! "Crush them towards the wall"

"Finally Peace"

but what should i do now since i know about this..

i will write till here then ..... Signing off

DUMB DUMB Beng ....

Pika Pikachu <3{12:35 PM]